synfluxmods: (Default)
𝚂𝚢𝚗𝚏𝚕𝚞𝚡 𝙼𝚘𝚍𝚜 ([personal profile] synfluxmods) wrote in [community profile] sinfucks2025-02-27 09:29 pm
Entry tags:

TEST DRIVE #9

TEST DRIVE #9


CONTENT WARNINGS: nudity, medical procedures, possession, puppets, bug kaiju, monster mutations

▶ 001. ARRIVAL / CAFETERIA. (KYOTO BASE)

It happens in the blink of an eye, a dash of time – you're taken from where you were. What you were doing... it isn't important anymore, and slowly, you give up the desire of your normal life. When you awaken, figures are looking down on you from a surgical table.

"Yeah, this one will do; let's take them to the rest." That's all you see before losing consciousness again, only to wake up in a pod with many others.

"Your questions will be answered soon enough, as I'm sure you will have many," a female, robotic voice says.


Just then, you regain consciousness in a pool of stasis liquid along many others. You realize you are underground. Your new life is about to begin... whether you like it or not.

When the pool mostly drains of its liquid, each Outsider will find themselves in what appears to be a large pool of some sort; they are underground. The base in Kyoto isn’t fully equipped with individual pods, and so the newly arrived will find themselves in a tangle of limbs, or depending on when they wake, utterly alone in this vast space. While normally they arrive in their undergarments, there is a chance that they could arrive totally nude due to lack of resources in Kyoto. Those who are not nude, however, may find themselves in whatever undergarments LILITH could provide for them at the time. Maybe it's something basic and simple like whitey tighties, or something saucy like a lingerie set, maybe matching Hello Kitty bra and panties. When they fully regain their bearings, they will be ushered into the medical bay space right across from the stasis pool, in which several grey LILITH-issued yukata will be prepared for them.

If a character has any accessibility needs, they will be found here. It's about then they will feel a sharp pain at the back of their eyes, almost like there’s a foreign body lodged on the inside of their head. This pain will subside quickly as their body adapts to the changes, but there will always be a sensation of something being not quite right; that their bodies have been changed forever. They would be correct in thinking that. In the stasis pool, all Outsiders have been surgically fitted with ocular and brain implants that will enable them to communicate with LILITH and the rest of the crew, as well as providing them the information they require. Almost like a computer screen has been loaded into their brains, they will see a loading screen as the implant completes its download. A questionnaire will then pop up, waiting for their answer. A voice, robotic and feminine, will also read along in their brain for them.


█ █ █ LOADING COMPLETE … BEGIN ORIENTATION …


Name:
Username:
Civilian Identity:
Age:
Species:
Origin:
Blood Type:
Syndata File: 🎉 NOW PUBLIC ACCESSIBLE 🎉

Have you ever had a dream that that you um you had you'd you would you could you'd do you wi you wants you you could do so you you'd do you could you you want you want him to do you so much you could do anything?




The system will give Outsiders one chance to provide a truthful answer and choose their username and civilian identity. Should they refuse to cooperate, the implant will download the answer directly from their brain (and give them a username or civilian name against their will). This questionnaire will then be posted on the network for all to view and reply to. Almost like an ice-breaker, if you will. LILITH wants all their newest recruits to learn about each other! Also, current Outsiders will see that their Syndata Files are now accessible for all to see. (If you would like your Syndata file to be private for some reason, just assume it is inaccessible for some reason.)

Outsiders will receive a quick brief about their situation: they will be told that the year is 2279 and they have been taken to Neo Tokyo, one of the last bastions of mankind in a world terrorized by various Kaiju and monsters. Only a third of the population remains, and LILITH has gathered talented people from other dimensions here as a last ditch effort to save humanity. Outsiders are free to continue asking LILITH questions through their implant, but there’s no guarantee that they will provide them with a straight answer …

Outsiders will also notice an implant in their dominant wrist. This implant has a barcode in it that will enable them to purchase goods from the local stores in Neo Tokyo. They will receive a starting balance of 15,000 KRYPTOS (about USD 100), which is barely enough for a few good meals, groceries, and supplies. They can view their current balance through a hologram window projected by their ocular implant.

The mess hall at this base is on the surface level; not underground, and while larger, it does have a lot of empty space that still needs to be fitted in. The kitchen can be seen and one or two robots are busy stirring pots and preparing the dishes. The current offerings are a spicy turtle soup and deep fried vegetables roots that have been cultivated at this base in Kyoto. Not all the veggies used are a hit, some more pungent than others. There also seems to be several mystery meat dishes for those who wish to explore a new culinary world. Some are made as lab meats, and some most definitely come from smaller kaiju, but nobody needs to know that. Additionally, as only so much robotic staff could be brought over at a time, and since most are being used to rebuild parts of this base and the one in Tokyo— Outsiders will also be encouraged to make their own food. The recipes will all be made available on their oculars, but considering these meats come from various sources, they’re not all guaranteed to be tasty.

Someone else is here to check in with the newcomers; none other than Dr. Spim, the lead medical doctor here. A genius in an adorable, cat-sized body.

"So sorry about the weird question, but because of the previous damage done to the NEO TOKYO BASE, SYNTHIA has been acting kind of funny lately. Apologies for that. We are working quickly to fix her so she can return to purrfect operation."


▶ 002. KYOTO: THE BASE.

The Kyoto base was originally built as part of a large temple and its smaller structures, blending into a traditional yet modern building. As a result, it has all of the fixtures one may find in a temple, including several tori, as well as other areas of quiet meditation. If it weren’t so overgrown, a lot of the sights could have been considered idyllic at one point.

While Outsiders were encouraged to go to the bunkers after the mess of Tokyo, they are now offered a space within the base in Kyoto, as well. Though, the catch is that they have to help rebuild it. While the robots have been quick to rebuild the most important parts of the building, including the area for the giant stasis pool, a barebones research facility, the mess hall, and some rooms, it’s clear it’s still a work in progress. As mentioned, it has some area underground, such as the stasis pool and medical room.

The rooms available are designed as a traditional washitsu, where there are tatami floors, and futons to sleep on. As not all the rooms have been prepared yet, Outsiders will also be required to room up during their stays in Kyoto, unless they prefer to travel between the Tokyo bunkers. Each room can hold a maximum of three (3) people, four (4) if they push their floor futons very, very close.

The main temple ground is currently being retrofitted into a training ground. While there is no simulation room, they do have hologram options in which characters are able to choose to fight with several different kaiju, as well as general soldiers, and they’re even able to link memories from their oculars to fight against– whether this be an enemy from their respective home worlds, or otherwise. The only issue is that their powers haven’t been scaled yet, so enemies which seem weak, can be strong, and vice versa. LILITH also wants to be sure Outsiders get as much practice as needed, even without the simulation rooms, and so all manner of futuristic weapons will be offered to play around with.

While many have been made familiar with certain spaces at the base, including the mess hall, or the medical bay, there will also be a general map of the rest of the base, and Outsiders are free to explore those freely. Just like with the bunkers, there are communal baths, and even a library. Most of the reading offered here are of older texts, but there will be some books that were on base that may have been moved sometime between last year. They may have even mistakenly put up books salvaged from the base that may be personal items, whether that is a diary, notebook, or even doujinshi that Outsiders could have been keeping. Surely some of these doujinshi don't look like you, right?

Getting settled is priority number one, however one glaring issue will be made apparent during the initial week of them moving onto the base in Kyoto. The monks who were residing nearby, or even utilizing the abandoned temple spaces on the outskirts of the base, all seem to have issues with the Outsiders being there. As such, LILITH hopes to offer them assistance in exchange for giving up those areas. Monks will be asking Outsiders for help with numerous tasks, and are allowed to call upon any Outsider they see— whether they need them to clean some of the halls of their own living spaces, or even to help cultivate plants nearby. Some may even ask them to put on a performance appropriate for their cultural celebrations. It’s never too late to learn something new! On the bright side, in two weeks time, they will (probably) be out of everyone’s hair, right?




▶ 003. KYOTO: REBUILD .

Kyoto itself had been largely abandoned before the Outsiders first stepped in last year. Since then, some pockets of civilization that existed nearby have made the move to Kyoto in hopes of a better life. Additionally, those who have been scarred by the battle in Tokyo have decided to also make this move. Some originally from Kyoto, are grateful for the help of the Outsiders as they can finally return to their old family homes.

Outsiders are expected to use this time off from battle to not only assist the civilians in their efforts in rebuilding their lives, but to also help create an impact in Kyoto!

This is where the Outsiders are able to assist in pitching their idea of necessary infrastructure to Kyoto. As of right now, there are only so many resources, and whichever ideas are most well-justified will likely end up becoming a part of Kyoto. As of right now, the civilians themselves seem to want hospitals, shops/entertainment businesses, and even parks! Outsiders will be expected to help not only plan these ideas out, but to go around and rally support for these projects, which can be them creating annoying ads via oculars, participating in city hall debates, and/or even clogging up the network on why their idea would be best.

Despite bringing in a fair amount of food supplies to start, not only growing some of the food they had successes in raising via the lab, growth time is still a huge factor, especially as the LILITH-grade greenhouse is still in the works. In the meantime, Outsiders will be expected to hunt and gather their own food. Kyoto is still largely overrun by some populations of smaller boar kaiju, and even off the coasts of Osaka, there are several fishing spots available. As for whether they’re safe for consumption, everyone will get a ping on their oculars which includes a whole archive of signs of what is safe or unsafe to consume. Some will also find some fish will still be supersized and may take more than one Outsider to reel in.

Who doesn’t like a bit of risk to go with their fishing?

( After the TDM, characters will have the opportunity to rebuild Kyoto in a meaningful way, just like playing a game of the sims! In the next event, players will be encouraged to share their ideas for infrastructure and LILITH will provide assistance with building it. Interested characters may even have the opportunity to take up roles in running and governing the city following that. As a mod team, we are looking forward seeing the fruits of a player-run city. So rally your ideas and let's make Kyoto a great new place to live! )




▶ 004. PUPPETMASTERS.

While the new beginning is exciting, things never stay calm for long. Outsiders will receive a briefing that there is trouble afoot in Awaji Island, an island close to Osaka. Awaji Island, now mostly deserted, was once known for its traditional puppet theater. These puppet shows, of course, have not been running for decades, but they are still remembered fondly by the people who used to live there. Following a mass exodus by the citizens living there a long time ago, these puppets now lay abandoned in the theater, untouched for decades.

Recently, LILITH has received reports of puppets coming to life and walking the streets, causing panic within the small population still residing in Awaji Island. First, they were simply feeling their feet, roaming the island with no real aim in mind and giving the residents a scare. Eventually, they have started to attack people. It was reported that a young woman was ambushed by animated puppets, and all that was left of her remains were bones and tufts of hair.

Outsiders will be mobilized immediately to Awaji Island with the goal of dealing with the situation. They have the option of boarding a LILITH-issued ferry to the island, or donning an Ocean Gem, gem-like implant that temporarily gives them the gills and tail of a marine creature. These gems will be provided temporarily to all Outsiders requesting them and will need to be returned following the mission. Please note that the transformation can be quite uncomfortable.

Upon arrival on the island, they will be tasked with hunting down the animated puppets, investigating the situation, and eliminating the threat. The capture of one specimen will reveal its true nature. Within the hollow body of a marionette, there appears to be an infestation of ant-like creatures, and much like hundreds to thousands of tiny puppetmasters, they are animating the puppets and using them for protection. These insects have learned to move within their marionettes in a way that’s similar to humans, and within the marionettes, they will attack as humans do, brandishing readily available weapons such as knives and farming tools. When the shell of the puppet is cracked open, they spill out, swarming the nearest human they can find and attempting to eat them or infest their body.



█ █ █ MONSTER DEBRIEF SHEET
NAME: Marionant
HEIGHT: 2cm
WEIGHT: 2g
CLASS: No threat when alone, moderate threat when in a swarm
LOCATION: Awaji Island, Japan
ABILITIES: When in a swarm, they act in a hive mind and are highly coordinated. This allows them to take down much bigger prey. Razor sharp mouth pincers with a mild, stinging venom that can become lethal if a prey gets bitten too many times. More durable than your average ant, able to withstand 100kg of force without being crushed. Shows ability to think and plan their movements when working as a hive mind. When they infest a body, they seek to control it while eating up its insides, turning that body into a puppet slave.
WEAKNESS: Fire or drowning in water.
EXTRA NOTES: It is very difficult to stop them once they have started infesting a body. Avoid this at all cost. Seek medical attention immediately if you or a teammate has been infested.

█ █ █ MISSION OBJECTIVE:
✖ Rescue civilians from the ant kaiju.
✖ Avoid infestation or lethal bites.
✖ Use fire or water as it is their weakness.
✖ Seek out their nests and destroy it without letting them scatter.

█ █ █ ATTACHED PHOTO: Linking Photo (cw: bug illustration)

▶ 005. THE RIFT .

Following the events of the month before, Mt. Fuji has now been cordoned off and put under restricted access. This means that no civilian may go anywhere close to the area. Outsiders are given patrol duties in groups of 2-3 around the area and instructed to eliminate any stray kaiju that try to rear their head out of the rift. These kaiju can include common kaiju such as the boar kaiju, the coconut crab or the yamadenki. These shifts are designed to not last very long, as prolonged exposure to the rift can result in rift poisoning effects (headache, nausea, impulsive behavior, hallucinations). It is not recommended to stick any part of your body through the rift, given that we are working with what we don’t understand (please contact a mod if your character decides to do this).

While nothing seems out of the ordinary at first, reports pour in within a few days of trespassers spotted within the restricted area. With a large, visible portion of Mt. Fuji now destroyed, it’s only natural that civilians will become curious. Against their better judgement, a group of civilians have sneaked into the restricted area during a change of patrols. There is little video record of how this had happened, but being near to the rift without LILITH’s protective suits has made for a devastating consequence for the foolish and daring group. Mutations! Outsiders will come across several mutated humans, their bodies mangled with grotesque growths. Some of them might have developed tentacles, some others multiple eyes or hardened shells. They flicker between lucidity and ferociousness, at times crying and begging to be saved, at other times trying to kill and eat people.

The orders are to subdue these people and bring them back to LILITH for further investigation and treatment. While lethal force is highly discouraged, LILITH will not extend punishment toward Outsiders who see fit to exterminate the threats as a last resort.



▶ 006. AFTERWORD.

Welcome to our 9th TDM! All TDM threads are game canon and characters who don't app will be glitched out of this world. As the TDM will act as the event, existing characters are heavily encouraged to participate. Please use this format for top levels: CHARACTER | CANON | CURRENT / NEW CHARACTER.

There are currently 15 available player slots. New players are welcome to use this TDM to get samples for when APPLICATIONS open.

Use the code provided in the ARRIVAL prompt if you'd like to participate in the ice breaker, and place it in your top level along with your other prompts. Anything such as civilian name or username can be marked as UNDECIDED if you're unsure of what you'd like your character to have for now. Though it says 'Orientation', existing characters can still participate in the ice-breaker. Current Outsiders will have their Syndata files accessible for all to see. New characters will not have a syndata profile but players can write a short blurb about the character for this.

Please note that all tags in this log will count for 2 points each and will count towards March AC.


TDM #8 BREAKDOWN/RECAP (CLICK TO EXPAND)
1. ARRIVAL PROMPT (KYOTO): Newcomers arrive with ocular and brain implants, and are given a breakdown of the premise with an icebreaker orientation to complete. They arrive in the Kyoto base in a communal stasis pool which is underground.
2. THE KYOTO BASE: Most of the base in Kyoto has been rebuilt. It sits in a large temple which has been modified to accommodate for LILITH's needs. There is a giant stasis pool, a research facility, a mess hall, dorm rooms, medical facilities, a library, a training ground and a communal bath. Each room houses 3-4 people. Outsiders may fight in the training grounds, where they can train against holographic monsters or enemies from their home world. Outsiders will need to appease disgruntled monks by completing chores around the base.
3. REBUILD KYOTO: Civilians have started to move back to Kyoto in search of a better life. Outsiders are tasked to support them in rebuilding Kyoto. Gather ideas and rally support for these ideas. This is a lead in to a future event where players can present their ideas for mod consideration. Outsiders are also expected to hunt and gather their own food in the mean time. There are many boar kaiju available for hunting in Osaka and fishing spots available.
4. PUPPETMASTERS: Outsiders take a ferry or Ocean gem to Awaji Island where there is trouble afoot. Puppets are coming to life and attacking people! Inside these puppets there appear to be a swarm of ant kaiju that are highly dangerous. Eliminate the threat at all costs.
5. THE RIFT: Following the last event, there is a huge open rift at Mt. Fuji. Outsiders must take patrol shifts of 2-3 and kill any kaiju that jump out of the rift. Civilians are banned from visiting Mt. Fuji, but a group of civilians trespass illegally and become heavily mutated from rift exposure. Subdue these mutated humans and if necessary, kill them.
.


queenofkur: (faa 008)

2A

[personal profile] queenofkur 2025-03-02 12:14 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Ereshkigal watches silently as Godzilla uses both his innate abilities and those he gained in this world to teach those digital beasts a well-deserved lesson (probably, she doesn't know them).

When he takes notice of her, she shakes her head and smiles. ]


No, I was looking for you.

[ She had a really bad dream last night and got worried for him, that's all! ]

Those are your enemies in your homeworld?
30storieshigh: (My God(zilla) what have I done)

[personal profile] 30storieshigh 2025-03-02 01:49 pm (UTC)(link)
Heh. The past tense of the wording would be of more appropriate usage. Whilst indeed amongst the worst battled in the world of origin, they were all sent to their end.

[ He sounds a little smug about that. Never mind that all three almost managed to kill "him" and forget that he doesn't consider himself the original Godzilla, the fact remains that those enemies are ones any Godzilla can defeat.

The bug guy takes a moment to closely inspect the edge of his sword, making sure the training session didn't dull it. ]


I shall confess, I am gladdened you have sought me. I had intent to do the same with yourself once I had seen to... other matters.

[ Other matters being the constant downward spiral that is Lucy's mental health...

Satisfied that his weapon isn't in need of maintence Godzilla returns it to the pocket dimension his glove can access, then turns his full attention to Ereshkigal ]


You fare well after the last battles, Friend Ereshkigal? I understand there was little rest between your packs' own battle and engagement with the Imugi.
queenofkur: (eaa 002)

[personal profile] queenofkur 2025-03-03 01:24 am (UTC)(link)
As expected from a king of kaijus.

[ She nods approvingly and smiles brightly. At least she thinks he's king, he's mentioned it before. She's not exactly sure how royalty works amongst the kaijus of his world, but she'll take him to his word. ]

Ah, it wasn't easy but I managed.

[ Look at her, first mission where everything has gone well for her! Not kidnapped, not brainwashed, not stuck in her most painful memories - why, she even helped people and managed to save both Yato and Ratio!

What a shame cosmic forces beyond even her knowledge won't let her have it that good next month. ]


But it sounds like you had matters of your own outside of those fights, yes?
30storieshigh: (heard you were talking shit)

[personal profile] 30storieshigh 2025-03-03 02:24 am (UTC)(link)
Titans, Friend of Mine. King of the Titans. I ill like the term "Kaiju".

[ With most people that correction would come with no small amount of snarling and tail slamming, but not Ereshkigal. She's as loyal and close a Friend as any Godzilla's had before, he's not about to take offense to anything she says. ]

Ah. A relief then, one of few we have had.

[ The big guy sighs, smoke bellowing from his nostrils, his tail twitching. ]

My own time has been... occupied. Some of the packs have sought my input on the final moments of the Imugi, this has needed answering in the ways I am best able. Then there is the matter of Kaede-hime. She is... unwell, after what we have lost.

[ A beat as he looks down at his can of coffee, another tail twitch. ]

A confession. I am likewise troubled. The time not spent in training or seeing to others I have been... tending to Young Noodle and Young Tempest, in ways that line with the traditions of this land. It is a thing of little impact, though the most I am able to offer them now.
queenofkur: (faa 200)

[personal profile] queenofkur 2025-03-03 02:02 pm (UTC)(link)
[ She nods. Titans it is then. She supposes the negative connotation with kaiju must be exhausting... It's like if she'd been summoned in a world where "gods" are the enemies trying to destroy humanity and everyone gave her side looks!

But then she tilts her head down as Godzilla explains what ails him. Ah, of course Lucy would feel unwell after this. And he as well. The loss of the younglings must have hurt them more than most people here. ]


I... I'm sorry. I did think about asking a number of our ranks to stay behind to protect the base. [And by extension, the babies.] But I opted to trust LILITH's judgment over my own.

[ A mistake she's not about to repeat. It's been one too many time that LILITH command has proven to be - quite frankly - incompetent.

She feels bad about it. Though realistically she's not sure they would have agreed to let a team stay behind even if she'd suggested it... But she still feels like she could have done more. ]


Neither you nor Lucy could have anticipated what happened... I am still struggling to believe a mother would have sacrificed her own youngs of her own free will.

[ This makes little sense to her. It is as if the Imugi had been possessed by another entity... ... Well there's that theory. But-- ]

Let's go outside. It'll be better to talk of this.
30storieshigh: (62)

cw; light body horrror

[personal profile] 30storieshigh 2025-03-04 02:54 pm (UTC)(link)
Your apology is a sentiment I have appreciation for, yet it is not necessary.

[ He puts a gentle hand on her shoulder, inclining his head slightly in a grateful gesture. ]

This was not a responsibility placed upon your shoulders, Friend Ereshkigal. If any are at fault it is myself, I should have given insistence that I stayed with my-- the hatchlings. [ He keeps making that slip up... ] Perhaps I would have been capable of discouraging from answering the summons of their progenitor. Yet none will be capable of saying for certain.

[ He heaves a great heavy sigh and steps back from her. ]

Indeed. I have... much to say on the matter of the Imugi. A moment.

[ He knocks back the last of his drink and holds out the empty can, allowing his drone to retrieve it and fly off to deposit it in the nearest recycling bin. Once he's freed up he transforms.

Going from lizard to human is a significantly less gnarly affair than the opposite. While there's still plenty of unpleasant noises as his bones crack and rearrange, there's no tearing of flesh from the elongating of his features or eruption of his spines. Instead he just kind of squishes down to the 7ft pretty boy, scales smoothing out into soft skin, spines and tail sinking into his form, a mane of pink hair erupting from the back of his skull as it compacts into human features.

Thankfully for Eresh's sake the nanomachines of Godzilla's style upgrade keep up with his changing, quickly forming a simple pair of jeans, a gray t-shirt, and a brown bomber jacket over his body and preventing him from violating social norms. The nanomachines also form a hair tie around his wrist, something he puts to use instantly as he gathers up his flowing hair into a ponytail. ]


Lead, Friend of Mine. I am amiable to any location you wish to make way towards.
queenofkur: (dab 003)

[personal profile] queenofkur 2025-03-05 03:49 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Thankfully, Ereshkigal isn't disturbed by this. She would have been if there had been no clothes! If anything, she can't get used to his new human form... S-She's kind of tempted to tell him that Lucy would likely accept him no matter the avatar, but! If he likes this new form better, then that's his choice. ]

I shall make it as short as possible. I believe something from beyond the rift influenced - possibly even possessed - the Imugi. [...] It wasn't the same as it once was, both in body and mind. Such radical transformation is unnatural. Furthermore, I find it unlikely the Imugi from last year would have sacrificed her own children of her own volition when she had a chance to take them back.

[ As an earth mother goddess, this is difficult to accept for her. Killing one's children is something she finds most abhorrent. And while she knows many are the mothers who have killed and hurt their own, she didn't believe the Imugi could go that far. ]

I remembered something you once told me in passing. That the Imugi reminds you of your world's Tiamat. And on our mission, the rift's effect we saw reminded me of my world's Tiamat. [A pause.] Of course, this is all conjecture. But even if not Tiamat... This has led me to believe there is a will beyond the rift, one that affects the Kaiju's behavior.

[ She tilts her head. ]

In Transylvania, the creature could affect and even control our minds. I see no reason why Kaijus would be immune to those effects. [She shakes her head.] Everything points to there being an enemy controlling the kaijus from beyond the rift.
30storieshigh: (63)

[personal profile] 30storieshigh 2025-03-05 11:45 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Godzilla is fully silent while she speaks, giving her is full attention. Some of what she says strikes him as almost foolishly misguided, yet other points are ones he's thought of himself.

Once Ereshkigal has finished Godzilla crosses his arms and leaves a great sigh. He's silent for a good few moments, ordering his thoughts. When he speaks is slow and measured, thought being given to each word used. ]


The Imugi... I have belief you assign too much credit to her nature. There was no care in her for her young from the start, else she'd have fought us to her last to defend the eggs.

[ He turns his head and actually spits, gross, but his mouth feels unclean just mentioning how easily abandoned the young were by their mother. It disgusts him. ]

When her and I took each other's measure at the end I could see her for what she was. Hateful, cruel... evil. One of four beings I have met in my long years I would ascribe that term to without hesitation. Destruction and pain were her goals, causing them her singular joy. She was... wrong. Though whether through corruption as you expect, or simply born from holding more power than compassion we will of like never know.

[ Another sigh, his arms uncross and his hands go into the pockets of his jacket as he paces. If he were in his true form his tail would be whipping around dangerously. ]

We are in agreement to what like lies beyond the Rifts. I have little doubt there is a being or beings that stand as alpha to the Kaiju we have faced. The poisoning of this world, its changing to something other, it would be an act of idiotic disregard to think it not the goal.

Ghidorah, my oldest enemy, they were much the same. An Invader from beyond earth, intent on twisting the environment itself to better suit their habitation. That is my believe of the Kaiju, or their Masters, the reshaping and eventually colonization>/i> of this world.

[ The way he days colonization makes it sound like a curse. ]

Pilot Yzak had thought that perhaps we would be able to hold reason with the Kaiju, to open discussion. I fear that hope has died with my hat-- the hatchlings. There is doubt this conflict ends in any other method than the elimination of one side over the other.

I am vexed by this, Friend of Mine. I tire of such slaughter.
Edited 2025-03-05 23:45 (UTC)
queenofkur: (aaf 002)

[personal profile] queenofkur 2025-03-06 10:56 am (UTC)(link)
[ She's under no illusion, it is unlikely this world's Tiamat is the culprit. But the reasoning still leads to a conclusion she firmly believes in: the presence of an enemy beyond. ]

... I-I hadn't realized she was always this way.

[ It makes sense Godzilla would have been able to see through her more easily, so she doesn't question his judgement. She listens to everything he has to say and nods in agreement, but one thing he said in particular retains her attention.

His hatchlings. That's what he had meant to say, wasn't it? She hadn't realized he had grown so close to them. No wonder it hit him so hard.

She places a hand on his shoulder and smiles sadly. ]


... I know this may not be of any comfort. [But she has to try even then.] But I am sure they are at peace now. Young ones who died at the hand of their parents are often tortured by the brutality and lack of affection. [A pause.] But you made sure they knew what affection and care is.

[ Is that a comforting though? Maybe not, the death of one's children can never truly heal. But... She is death. That is all she can offer to help. ]
30storieshigh: (66)

[personal profile] 30storieshigh 2025-03-06 08:59 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Outside of the week where Godzilla was considering the merits of stomping humankind back into the stone age he's never exactly been one who's been or even needed comforting from another. Has he been unsure of things and required guidance? Most certainly! But grief? Up till now he's been the one serving as a pillar to help others through theirs. He hasn't felt loss like this since...

Well, since the one he last called Brother died a few thousands of years ago. And that technically wasn't even him, that was the Godzilla of the world of origin. He himself has never had to go through loss until now.

He hates it. To feel powerless like this, unable to do anything but digest the grief. Is this feeling of helplessness what humans feel all the time? How can they even stomach it?! ]


I... am of appreciation of the attempt. [ He sighs, the action seeming to take all the energy out of every muscle in his body. ] Yet I have still failed them. Their protection should have been my concern, yet once more I have allowed death to occur whilst I saw to a battle.

The hatchlings this time, who is to say whom I shall fail next. Yourself? Friend Laios? Kaede-hime...? I hold concern that I am little of the protector that I should be for those around myself.
queenofkur: (faa 200)

[personal profile] queenofkur 2025-03-07 11:37 am (UTC)(link)
[ She remains silent for a little bit. She understands him too well, she's often felt like this. A goddess should be able to save everyone, to take care of things more efficiently. And while those feelings aren't entirely gone... She's slowly been successful in getting them under control. ]

I struggled a lot with it - and I still am - but I came to the realization I am not truly a goddess any more in this world. More than that, I now accept this fact for what it is. [A pause.] It allowed me to be far more efficient last battle, as I worked around my limitations and did not constantly berate myself for not doing as much as a goddess should.

[ It's not much, but she's very proud of her latest performance! ]

You need to make peace with your current state of being, Godzilla. Accept the limitations imposed onto you by this world, work with those limitations and draw strength from your newfound form.

[ He's not a giant kaiju any more. So long as he lingers on what he was once capable of, he'll never reach the true potential of his true form. ]

Even so... You can do everything perfectly and still fail, Godzilla. [A sad smile.] It's life. The suffering and pain that happens even though we did everything right... This is one of the most painful thing any who live must reckon with.
30storieshigh: (65)

[personal profile] 30storieshigh 2025-03-09 03:03 am (UTC)(link)
[ What she says isn't something he hasn't thought before, in fact it's pretty much what he believes. Suffering will happen, it is a part of life. All shall experience loss and pain in their time, they will grow from it in the end, it's just how things are.

But it shouldn't be for him. More is expected of him. He is Godzilla! King of the Titans, Ruler and Protector of Earth, the very reason humankind wasn't exterminated millennium ago underfoot of the more destructive Titans.

Except he isn't that Godzilla, a fact he's been using to try and live his own life. He can't have things both ways however. Like Ereshkigal he is not the being he was copied from, he is not the end all be all, he can not expect himself to be. He is one of many and without those around him he is as doomed to fail as they are without him. That's what it means to be a pack. ]


Heh.

[ That's how he breaks his silence, chuckle, a chuckle and a smile that reaches those yellow lizardy eyes of his. ]

Though your position may not be one of divinity, you are indeed possessing of the wisdom one would expect of a goddess. It has grown each day in you since we first met, Friend Ereshkigal. I confess a pride to see your gain in it and the confidence it seems to bring you.

[ And like a proud elder figure Godzilla proceeds to give Ereshkigal a very gentle head pat. ]

You are correct. I am of luck to possess a Friend as steadfast as yourself to remind me of such things. Without I am of like to make auroch-headed decisions when left to my own thoughts. My thanks, Friend Ereshkigal.
queenofkur: (bam 005)

[personal profile] queenofkur 2025-03-09 11:42 am (UTC)(link)
[ She would disagree they're copies of their original selves... For gods, it's a fairly common occurrence to incarnate as avatars that simultaneously are yet are not their original selves. She would argue that's also the kind of existence Godzilla is, but unfortunately there is no way to prove her theory one way or another. ]

Confidence... Confidence was never something I needed, alone as I was in the Underworld. If anything... [If anything why would I have developed confidence when the entire world hated me and wished to forget about me? But she shakes her head.] ... N-Never mind that.

[ She doesn't want to delve on that. Not right now when there is far more pressing: the sad titan before her! Even though he looks a bit less sad right now, thank goodness. ]

The potential to make calm decisions and choose to do the right thing has always been within you, Godzilla. I'm only helping you remember it. [A pause.] Where I lack confidence... So do you, don't you? But in a different way.

[ This is something that admittedly worries her. Were she to disappear like Ishmael or Callisto, who would be there to remind Godzilla to remain on the right path? He doesn't get along with Ratio and with Lucy's mental health on the decline, she's worried he would go down on a very very bad path. But... She wants to believe in him. And to convince him to believe in himself, too! ]

You are a kind and caring soul, yet you do not fully believe in yourself. [A smile.] But you're getting there. Slowly yet steadily. I am just as proud of you for your progresses.
30storieshigh: (67)

[personal profile] 30storieshigh 2025-03-10 07:09 am (UTC)(link)
[ Godzilla's counter to that point would be that "copy" and "separate incarnation" are simply a difference of semantics, that they both share the same believe in their nature just in different words. It would be a debate that lasts into ungodly (heh) hours of the night into morning, possibly the next time Ereshkigal is allowed near alcohol it may occur. ]

Just as the potential to be a true Queen amongst your pantheon has always been within yourself, Ereshkigal. Because you have not had need for it does not mean you have lacked the capacity.

[ You're not getting out of him building you up that easily, bestie! He's about to laugh but...

Her words hit him harder than he expected. He lacks confidence too, does he? There was a time where he would rage against such a statement, puff his chest out and proudly proclaim that he is Godzilla, he lacks in nothing. Something that now he recognizes as a thing that would simply prove the point.

Yes, he lacks confidence. Confidence to do the right thing, confidence that he can remain the hero Kaede so desperately wants him to be for her. Confidence that he is worthy of this goal he's set to become a kami to this world, a true protector both in the physical and spiritual sense for the humans that reside here.

He lacks the confidence that he can prevent himself from slipping into another murderous rage and prevent innocent blood from flowing from his claws and teeth and down his throat. Warm, hot, sticky... ]


You are not as incorrect in this as I would like you to be. Just as I have begun to see the worst that humankind has to offer, I have as like seen the worst that resides within my own being. It is... unnerving. Without care I have the potential to be as much a blight upon this world as the Kaiju I was called to defend against.

[ He sighs, for once keeping himself from bellowing smoke, but he manages to nod in response to her smile. ]

Yet your pride in my efforts is a thing I am appreciative of. It gives reassurance. I am not alone within these packs, I am to be one of many, yes? Yet it is the few, those I call Friend such as yourself, whom I know shall be there when I stray. There begins to exist between us a debt, Friend Ereskigal. Based upon mutual support of another, unrepayable, it shall simply grow and deepen over time I believe.

This is good. This is what friends do for another, yes? We keep each other from succumbing to the darkness without and within.
queenofkur: (bam 005)

[personal profile] queenofkur 2025-03-10 11:52 pm (UTC)(link)
[ H-He keeps on going! He can't do that, she's gonna faint from an overload of encouragement and building up!! He's such a kind and caring friend. But that's exactly why she wants to make sure he'll be able to stay true to himself even if she somehow leaves this world.

The vengeful and destructive side he's been keep in check isn't the real him, of this she is sure. It is the titan who cares for his friends and wishes to protect all he can who is the true Godzilla. And one way or another, she has to make sure he never loses sight of that. ]


You are absolutely right.

[ The power of friendship!

... Well okay, she knows it doesn't exist (unless you're in the Kingdom Hearts world). But the bonds between them still have a tangible impact on their lives and personalities, even if it's not something as cheesy as a literal power.

Now is the time when she'd suggest he confesses to Lucy (or ask if he did already during Valentine's day), but romance is kind of a sore topic of late so. She avoids it altogether. ]


We'll be here if you ever stray from your path. I was a cold and cruel goddess once. But the bonds I formed... They allowed me to become the goddess I had been in the beginning once more. [Unfortunately this is an informed quality and Fate/ still has to ever show what her "cold and cruel" phase was like, instead they keep showing her as being identical whenever there is a flashback. B-But she was probably really super mean!] Hold on to your bonds and I don't doubt you will remain true to yourself.
30storieshigh: (68)

[personal profile] 30storieshigh 2025-03-13 09:11 am (UTC)(link)
[ Probably for the best Ereshkigal hasn't asked. Godzilla and Lucy have slept together recently with him in his humanoid form (platonically, clothes on), but he still feels... wrong about the whole thing. Especially now. Romance should be the last of his concerns when things are such a mess. ]

A confession. It is a thing of difficult nature to imagine you as one cruel in nature, you are amongst the warmest souls I have met.

[ He shakes his head with a light chuckle. He doesn't doubt that she was that cold being she lays claim to, of course, he knows she'd never lie. That aside it's hard to imagine anyone wouldn't turn to such a way of being after untold lifetimes worth of isolation and disdain from all others whom they know. Ereshkigal's truly had a hard life, it makes her outlook all the more impressive and that much more of a thing worth listening to. If someone like her can hold onto hope then there's certainly something to it. ]

One still wonders what the truth of myself is, however. [ A thoughtful shrug, his eyes turning skyward as he contemplates it. ] There are things of "Godzilla" which cannot change, this I know for a surety. The earth is to be protected, the balance maintained, humanity defended even from themselves. Yet what of the rage, the eagerness to see the blood of my foes, the unwillingness to allow for compromise...?

[ A sigh, of course bellowing smoke as he does so. ]

Parts of myself, useful even to a certain extent. Yet should they change? I had held thought to treat with the Imugi, to attempt peaceful resolution, until she murdered my--the hatchlings. Could one not take that as sign that such efforts were to be a waste, or is this the attitude of one given to defeat?
queenofkur: (kaw 016)

[personal profile] queenofkur 2025-03-13 02:10 pm (UTC)(link)
Loneliness and resentment will gnaw at any heart if given enough time.

[ That is... All she is willing to say on the topic. She doesn't like who she had become. She doesn't really like who she is right now either, so it's absolutely a possibility she's exaggerating and her killing Ishtar is the beginning and end of her "cruel" era. We may never know, thanks Nasu. ]

These are just human emotions, Godzilla. And not human as in mankind... But human as in what all sentient living beings from Earth and even other stars feel.

[ There has to be a better word than "human" for this, but she's never really had to think about it. ]

Yet you are more than your emotions. Sometimes I feel anger and wishes to act upon it... But I remind myself it's wrong. And that conscious part of yourself that decides good from evil? That's also you. [She smiles.] Ultimately, who you are is what you decide to do with those various thoughts and emotions, how you decide to solve your own contradictions. [She's going to sleep a lot tonight, she's nearly entirely spent from keeping herself together for that long!] Those efforts were a waste if you let them be so. But they can be a stepping stone towards deciding who you want to be, if you decide to make the best oout of them.