[He knows this. It's the same fucked-up headspace Izuku's in. Other people came first. To the extent that Izuku and Yuji somehow don't count as "people" in their own minds. Katsuki said Izuku was insane and he's not about to retract that statement. Sacrificing themselves over and over so other people can be happy. "I'm happy because you're happy" kind of mindset. He doesn't get it, he can't get it, and it makes him feel uncomfortable because of that. And yet, there's no denying that heroes are also insane. Who else would throw themselves into the thick of things, get trashed for doing it, and get right back up to do it again?
Katsuki's done that plenty of times, biting the hand of his opponent because that was the only thing left he could move and damn if he wasn't going to use anything possible to try and win. Standing up a bloody mess, his arm mangled, his face half torn open, stitched up by Jeanist with his muscles shredded, and still aiming to take on Shigaraki despite his mentor pleading with him not to move. Heroes don't lose. Heroes always win. They fight to win, they fight to save. Reckless or not. Sanity or not.
If that's the case... why the hell does it hurt him so badly to see Yuji do all the same heroic things that Katsuki and others do in his world all the time? Tch, well, there's an obvious reason he's forbidden himself from admitting aloud. But perhaps most damning is that Yuji's let his mindset become a curse, and doesn't see himself as a hero... Taking the hit to save someone because you don't want them to die is one thing. Taking the hit to save someone because you think you deserve the pain... The fact that thought's even part of Yuji's heroic mindset is wretched.
But it's not his job to "fix" Yuji. He can't. All he can do is remind the guy he's good, he's a hero, and he's loved. Then bitch at him for being stupidly reckless. Like a good friend. Who's getting petted like a cat. Ugh. The things Yuji gets away with. Once he's done with the water, Katsuki lifts his head again, finally testing that tolerance. It swims a bit, but stays steady.]
Okay. It's mostly passed. [Tempted to take another bottle, but then he'd be pissing in an hour.] I'm not gonna puke.
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Katsuki's done that plenty of times, biting the hand of his opponent because that was the only thing left he could move and damn if he wasn't going to use anything possible to try and win. Standing up a bloody mess, his arm mangled, his face half torn open, stitched up by Jeanist with his muscles shredded, and still aiming to take on Shigaraki despite his mentor pleading with him not to move. Heroes don't lose. Heroes always win. They fight to win, they fight to save. Reckless or not. Sanity or not.
If that's the case... why the hell does it hurt him so badly to see Yuji do all the same heroic things that Katsuki and others do in his world all the time? Tch, well, there's an obvious reason he's forbidden himself from admitting aloud. But perhaps most damning is that Yuji's let his mindset become a curse, and doesn't see himself as a hero... Taking the hit to save someone because you don't want them to die is one thing. Taking the hit to save someone because you think you deserve the pain... The fact that thought's even part of Yuji's heroic mindset is wretched.
But it's not his job to "fix" Yuji. He can't. All he can do is remind the guy he's good, he's a hero, and he's loved. Then bitch at him for being stupidly reckless. Like a good friend. Who's getting petted like a cat. Ugh. The things Yuji gets away with. Once he's done with the water, Katsuki lifts his head again, finally testing that tolerance. It swims a bit, but stays steady.]
Okay. It's mostly passed. [Tempted to take another bottle, but then he'd be pissing in an hour.] I'm not gonna puke.