I know. But you ease his mind every time he sees you.
[Hard to make Raidou realize the reality of the situation, both the ugly parts and the beautiful parts. Wounds heal, scars fade, yet the memories will remain, bringing the pain in varying intensities from dull to sharp. Over time, it'll be easier. But at the current moment, it hits far too hard. Katsuki recognizes this is happening to both Raidou and Yuji. Making it hard for both of these self-sacrificing guys to offer the other an anchor when they're both buoys in the water.]
Don't dismiss you own suffering because someone else's. He probably thinks the same as you. [Feeling like he has to smile so Raidou won't suffer because Raidou's pain is worse than his, while Raidou thinks Yuji's pain is far more than his own. A cycle that goes over and over, faking each other out with neither willing to break down into the arms of the one person who cares for him the most. It could come to that...]
Why do you think you're not helping? [Katsuki turns his head to look at Raidou specifically, meeting his eyes with a quiet but firm gaze. So much regret and longing in the summoner's words, yet they're steeped in doubt at his own ability to make the boy he loves feel better. He won't... he won't be able to help Yuji if he doesn't believe anything he does helps.
Raidou's next comment catches him off guard. He blinks, head twitching back slight in surprise. Genuine. Damn. His hand tightens around the summoner's for a second before relaxing again, refusing to let go. Katsuki knows that took a lot to say, so his usual gruff dismissal of gratitude gets stifled.]
Don't apologize. I'll always be here for you. [A hero will always reach out to anyone who needs it. It's what heroes do. But more than his life as a hero, there's another reason. Personal. One Raidou should hear from Katsuki's own mouth.] You're my friend.
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[Hard to make Raidou realize the reality of the situation, both the ugly parts and the beautiful parts. Wounds heal, scars fade, yet the memories will remain, bringing the pain in varying intensities from dull to sharp. Over time, it'll be easier. But at the current moment, it hits far too hard. Katsuki recognizes this is happening to both Raidou and Yuji. Making it hard for both of these self-sacrificing guys to offer the other an anchor when they're both buoys in the water.]
Don't dismiss you own suffering because someone else's. He probably thinks the same as you. [Feeling like he has to smile so Raidou won't suffer because Raidou's pain is worse than his, while Raidou thinks Yuji's pain is far more than his own. A cycle that goes over and over, faking each other out with neither willing to break down into the arms of the one person who cares for him the most. It could come to that...]
Why do you think you're not helping? [Katsuki turns his head to look at Raidou specifically, meeting his eyes with a quiet but firm gaze. So much regret and longing in the summoner's words, yet they're steeped in doubt at his own ability to make the boy he loves feel better. He won't... he won't be able to help Yuji if he doesn't believe anything he does helps.
Raidou's next comment catches him off guard. He blinks, head twitching back slight in surprise. Genuine. Damn. His hand tightens around the summoner's for a second before relaxing again, refusing to let go. Katsuki knows that took a lot to say, so his usual gruff dismissal of gratitude gets stifled.]
Don't apologize. I'll always be here for you. [A hero will always reach out to anyone who needs it. It's what heroes do. But more than his life as a hero, there's another reason. Personal. One Raidou should hear from Katsuki's own mouth.] You're my friend.